7-7-2000 Friday

Big news!   I now have a LIVE WEBCAST with streaming audio and video! Check it my webcast on SpotLife!   You can get your own webcast too, all you need is a Logitech camera and a connection to the net.  Even with a 56k modem you can broadcast.  Pretty sweet.

I went rollerblading in my office today.  We have a big empty warehouse area in the back so I just bladed around there for a while.

My rollerblades are really old and I'm a terrible rollerblader but it was good to practice because it's so big and wide open back there.  I'm might try to do this regularly.

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Ok, one gratuitous screen shot for today...

And a NEW cam archive with pics from the last couple of weeks...

Cam Archive 5

7-6-2000 Thursday

Did I show you guys the pillow I bought to match my purple Volkswagen slippers.  Cute eh?

7-4-2000 Tuesday

Whoa, what a weekend.   Friday nite I decided to pass on going to the Drink Exchange thingy.  Teddy, Jansen, Mickey, and Kirk went but they said I really didn't miss anything.  I met up with them afterwards for a late night dinner at New Sun Hong Kong in SF Chinatown.

Saturday I went to see The Patriot with Steve, Teddy, Mickey and Kirk. Great movie, love Mel Gibson.  Sunday was an all day bbq at Jansen's house.  A LOT of fun.  A little too much drinkin but a lot of fun.   Monday I ended up sleeping all day unfortunately.  I went out to lunch with my mom and I think I got hit with another MSG coma because I went home and all I could do was sleep for the rest of the day.   Wasted!   Argh.  

On the 4th of July we all went out to our friend Alice's place for a bbq.  A LOT of cute guys there.  Mmmmm, yummy.   I think we're gonna have to hang out with Alice some more.   Hehe.

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So "HE" called on Friday.  He was being his usual flirtatious self and finally I said what I've been thinking/feeling for a while now.   (Actually I've said it before but I guess it didn't stop him.)   I asked him point blank, "Does your girlfriend know that you call me all the time?  Does she know about me?"  And he paused and said quietly, "No, she doesn't." And I said, "And how do you think she'd feel if she knew?"   He replied,"She wouldn't be too happy." I said, "And how would you feel if she were calling some guy all the time and talking to him the way you talk to me? I know I wouldn't like it if my boyfriend did that.  And I know if I had a boyfriend I wouldn't be doing that. You need to think about that."

And he said, "Yes, you're right.  That's definitely food for thought."  So basically that's how we left it.  I told him I wasn't trying to make him feel bad but I had to be honest.  I mean, he has a girlfriend already.   He tells me he is still attracted to me and we have this undeniable chemistry but we both know that's not enough.   And I don't think he's being fair to his girlfriend.   I don't want to be in a relationship with him.  Over the past couple of months I've come to realize that.   I don't call him anymore, he calls me.   I can be his friend but no more than that.  He needs to figure out what he wants.  I already know what I want.   Or what I don't want.  

I'm not in love with him anymore, haven't been for a while.   

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