1-7-2000 Friday

Happy Birthday to me! Happy Birthday to me! Happy Birthday dear... umm... ME-EE!  Happy Birthday to ME!  Wheeee!

Yay!   It's my birthday!   Thanks to everyone who has wished me a happy birthday today.   Too many to name, but a special thanks to Yvonne - Ms. Got-Rice herself for my online Flooz gift.    Thank you very very much, you're one the sweetest people I know.  :)

Also thanks to Kazu and Lance for the Icewine delivered via DKSF.   It was a Christmas gift that was slightly delayed.   Thanks guys!!

A belated thank you to Dave Lau for sending me the Taco Bell Chihuahua's.  I love 'em!  And more importantly, thank you for being such a good friend to me.

I took these pics of myself today.   I've had some people send me screen captures but for some reason they seem to like to capture me with the ugliest, goofiest expressions.   Um, unless I really look like that.  Doh!  

More stuff to come...

1-5-2000 Wednesday

I keep starting to write something and then I erase it.     2 days til my birthday.   I'm not really feeling it though.  At least I don't think so.  Already have birthday dinners lined up Fri, Sat and Sun so I get to spend my weekend with people I love.

I'm so tired right now.  Work is stressful.  Busy as usual.   I'm happy but I wonder if I can stay happy if things get overwhelming.   I can feel it in my whole body.  I have knots of tension all over my back.   I got a massage a couple of weeks ago and the person was shocked how many knots I had in my shoulders and back.  I'm one big wad of tension.

I really need to sleep.   Sleep is good.  Stress is bad.

1-4-2000 Tuesday

I've been thinking a lot this past week.   Geez, I'm always thinking, reflecting, analyzing.   I was thinking about how I used to be, 3 years ago.   I was telling DKSF that I know I've changed a lot these past few years.   He says everybody changes, grows.   Yes, hopefully we all change for the better and grow as we learn.   But what happens when you change into someone who is not what you wanted/hoped to be?  I'm not the person I used to be.   Whenever I reread some of the stuff I wrote a long time ago, I think, "Who was that person?"  Not me.  

I don't want to be cliche and say it's a new year and I'm gonna change into some wonderful person.   New Year's resolutions and all that.   

I think I was much more caring back then.  Yes, I know I was.   I actually cared about people and things around me.  I was sympathetic, loving, feeling.   Now I'm largely apathetic.   How did I get to this point?   I'm sure others see it in me.  My friends seem to all love me just the same, even if they don't understand me.

I think I used to appreciate things a lot more.  Now I take a lot for granted.  Maybe I'm just selfish.   Maybe those critics are right and I'm just too self-centered.   

My friend Dave Kasama told me about the DotComGuy, this guy who is going to live the next year of his life online and not leave his house.  He is going to do all his shopping and interaction online.     I totally want to be the DotComGirl or Grrl.   I've become so antisocial these past couple of years that I know I could be very happy living my life on the Net, without having to deal with the outside world.   I wonder if someone would sponsor me if I tried to be the DotComGrrl.   I really wouldn't need much.  I already have my DSL line, several PCs and laptops scattered around my house.   I've got cable TV.  What more do I need?

I am the DotComGrrl...   

1-3-2000 Monday

It's Y2K and I'm still alive and kicking!  Yay.  Ok so much for my paranoia.  Nothing crazy happened.  Well, except the javascript for the date on my main page went screwy.   I thought I fixed it on Jan 1st but I didn't realize that in Internet Explorer it still was messed up.  I hate IE!!

So my buddy Jeff Kletsky wrote a java applet that fixed a few of the problems in my Webcams.    No more blank white screens.  A lot less garbage on the images too.   Yay Jeff!!

My birthday is this Friday, January 7th!   Maybe I'll buy myself a new toy for my birthday.  

It's the Panasonic DVD-L50 Portable DVD/Video CD/CD Player with LCD Monitor.   I saw Jim's and thought it was really cool.   I may just have to do a little shopping online :)

Took a few random pictures with my Webcam today...